A Journey of Life: 2012

Sunday, December 30, 2012

well this is 2012

time's flying so fast!
gabisa berhenti bilang kata-kata itu. 2012 banyak liku-liku yang udah kujalani. wew a tiring year maybe? haha okay disini aku coba untuk review kembali apa yang udah dilewati selama 2012.

January: wohoo! in the end of january was the best feeling i ever had!! last month, me titis and phil joined an online video competition about Jakarta. the announcement was around 30th January. we were really hopeless and didn't hope for the 1st place or to be a winner. until someone called and begged us to come to awarding night. wew we got the 1st place :D it's unbelievable! unfortunately, me and phil couldn't come to the awarding night but titis came. that was the best moment i ever had.

February and March: was really busy with tryout or any test for my final exam. yup! stressed out. the scariest thing in that moment is thinking about my future, my career, my goals...wew wanna cry :') too much thinking hard.

April: FINAL EXAM!! sehari setelah hari terakhir UN, temen-temen sepermainan kabur ke Jogja! wihiii lot of stories, but i was kinda random. my mood was random. yeah.

May, June and July: I forgot what happened in these month. i was busy to find a college what i belong to. i do really hope that it's the best for me.

August: My birthday! nothing special. i was scared. i'm already 18th and getting old. i miss my 16th birthday. di bulan ini juga, aku bener-bener sibuk buat bikin scrapbook untuk my besties yang mau kuliah diluar. bulan ini pula aku sempetin ngabisin waktu sama nofal, suci, riska dan tentunya ada momen yang ga pernah lupa haha i miss them :')

September: welcome to college's life. bulan ini juga berasa sedih.banget. sempet juga spend time bareng nofal dibulan ini dan waktu itu aku juga hopeless gabisa nganter dia karena ada acara. tapi untungnya aku bisa ikut nganter dia ke bandara. wah paraaaah belum pernah ngeliat kita (aku, nofal, suci, riska, amel) lumayan banjir airmata dan sesedih ini. beruntung temenan sama mereka, karena mereka bener2 peduli dan jadi pendengar yang baik buatku (cie). i love them. i really hope we can reach our goals and success AMIN.

October: i met new people, they're kind, cool, and fun. officially met someone i never expected and know more about him. i already knew him but i haven't talk to him. he's cool, kind and fun.

November: wew hahaha i have this feeling again :D thank God! i never expected for this. and still busy with college's stuff

December: starting to miss the old times :') but i really thank that i can still feel the joy in this year beside the dark moment. hope i can be better next year.

gaada habisnya kalo ngomongin cerita di tahun 2012. seru, takut, senang sedih, nyampur deh. but 2009 still my best year, and in the end of 2012 pun juga menyenangkan. u'll know it why hehe. semoga di tahun 2013 bisa mencapai semua goals dan bisa jadi lebih baik lagi. wuhu~ HAPPY NEW YEAR 2013 BLOGGERS :D

-Rarr

Friday, December 21, 2012

something built

Never wanna stand up for myself
Never wanna get in the way, I said it
I don’t know what the plan is,
But you can share with me, ‘cause I’ll
Be listening here,
To everything you say, I won’t turn away
And I will listen, open up my heart and
I must say that I love you, so

Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than ever before
Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than I’ve ever known

Every day is a battle I face
Strange life i live but its what you've decided
I’ll give it all into your hands,
Do what you will with me, and oh
I’ll smile when you speak
Remember all those times I was hoping for something
And shaking my head from all I have done
But you never left me

Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than ever before
Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than I’ve ever known
Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than ever before
Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than I’ve ever known

Give it up for you, I would give it up for you
I would give it up for you, I’d do anything for you

Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than ever before
Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than I’ve ever known
Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than ever before
Oo la love, I’ve fallen in love, and it’s better this time than I’ve ever known

I have fallen in love
I have fallen in love
I have fallen in love

Lyrics: Foster The People - I Would Do Anything For You
Images: Raranindt

(anyway i like this song, i always repeat it again. idk. is it because this song match with my feeling right now? haha who knows? :p)

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

deepest thought

jadi ini rasanya?
hanya karena ungkapan kata dan perasaan
bisa jadi senyum malu, kecemasan
rindu, tawa, haru, aku bisa merasakannya

sayang, aku hampir mencapai puncak yang tidak kuinginkan
kenapa?
aku takut terlalu larut dalam keadaan ini
takut jika keadaan ini hilang
seperti tak ada yang abadi
aku takut kejadian yang sama terulang

jadi ini rasanya?
akhirnya aku tahu mengapa itu begitu sakit
aku tahu mengapa itu begitu menyenangkan
kudoakan yang terbaik untuk semua